Too lost to love

I thought I was in  love

I  thought that she was perfect

I thought we could be happy

And find sadness never

I still had so many battles to fight

I am lost dept in my own body

I am puzzled is it career or love?

I am confused, I do not know who am I any more

I am lonely and lonelier than I never thought I could be

She was hungry and thirst of my love

I was emotionally unavailable,a bad man

I too have feelings for her but I do not worth her tears not even for a day

She is too precious to be hurt,too delicate to be heart broken

I let her go but I love her

But I am too lost to be in love


By Anonymous

Always be mine

You will always be mine,
even if we are miles apart,
You will always be mine,
and occupy a huge part in my heart,
You will always be mine, 


You will always be mine,
Even if you love some one else
You will always be mine,
I do not need you to love me back

Whenever you love, it's too good to be true.
Even so, it's truer than you believe,
Nor will you know till it vanishes again.
Time is a sea which opens where you cleave
Yet roils over what you leave behind.
For now, my love sings in the stars,
Or hisses against rocks like the sea,
Unraveling your life when you pause to grieve,
Returning with the sunlight, with the rain


By Hafifa Bahfif

I love you

I love you so deeply,
I love you so sweetly,
I love you so hard,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice,
The touch of you palms,
The sound of your voice,
The glow in your eyes,


I love your warm smile,
And your kind, thoughtful way,
I love you charm around the family,
 And the joy that you bring to my life.

I love the way you took care of me,
From the first day of my life,
I love the way you hug when I come to visit you,
I love the you tell me 'you are made of strength'

I love the way you work hard,
To keep the family as one
I love your strong heart,
And your personality 

I love you today,tomorrow and forever
 With all of my heart.

                        written by 
                          Hafifa

Lost Love Memory

When I first talked to you in college
I felt like I had known you forever
It reminded me of how I used to see in primary school
The difference was only we were both grown up

You called my name in the corridor of  lecture rooms
I bet you knew I did not see you
Who would have though
we would meet in college

Over a period of time,
I got to know you,
A guy so charming and gentle with a heart so true
With that dark skin blessed with strong muscles 
I still remember how you took me to my hostel
When i had severe cramps

You put me in my bed and kissed my lips 
I could no longer feel the cramps any more
All I could feel was your care and warm embrace
But I was too naive and too scared to love you back

I thought you I'd never leave
Because of how sweet you and loving you were 
I was wrong,by the time i fell for you
You were never the same guy

I thought you would change,
There was a time...
When I wanted to explore,
That would have happened
If I would open the door

Days passed and the love was getting sweeter
I love the way we are together not by  physic but by heart
You always made me smile
Will it be forever?

I asked myself that most time
Never would I forget your birthday
The day you stood me up waiting for you my love
With your name on a cake I made you
And a bottle of wine I bought for us
And nice food I cooked for you
I saw a gap between us growing wider and wider
I knew there was some one else
I never wanted to entertain my instincts 

You said it yourself  once or twice  'am a bad boyfriend'
Meeting you has changed my life and I really love you so,
The feelings I feel for you
Would never be compared

I'm never letting go,
And living my life with the...
Memories you left me with
The memory of pure love from my heart that was thrown away by you
Like a useless mineral water empty bottle
Until the day I said i could not take this any more
For it was too much pain

And I always thank God I met you 
I knew how hard I could love
I knew I was made of strength
But you closed your eyes not to see this all

            ''But your eyes can never be so blind not to understand this is for you''


                                                By    
                                                  Hafifa Bahfif
                                        

Long Distance

Long Distance Love
When it hurts so bad,
Why does it feel so good?

I wish this all made sense,
I wish I understood.

Not having you here with me is tearing me up inside,
but I can't stop thinking about you no matter how hard I try.

You know how I feel about you,
and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
but it's so hard to do when I can't even be next to you.
Why does it gotta be so complicated?

Loving you feels so right,
but at the same time,
knowing I can't have you keeps me awake at night.

I just want this to be simple,
I just want you here with me,
to look into your eyes,
be held in your arms
then I'd truly be happy.


                                                 By Krish

Stand tall

Breathing, looking, feeling and walking
Deciding, choosing, living and talking
Just like a developing child; an adolescent learning
Just like an endless beginning a genuine yearning

Independent, supported or alone
Beg, borrow, or maybe one day I'll even own
There is definitely a light and it is calling me
Close my eyes spread my wings and I will fly free

No more shame, pretend, cheap smiles and lies
No more ifs, buts, maybes or whys?
Who are you? What do you want? How do you sleep?
I know now I am not your possession to abuse and keep

You were right, it's dramatic, and all for show
But it was you in the lead role, so desperate to grow
Like a parasite you tried to consume and destroy my life
Like a human being I tried to be your partner, friend and wife

Go back to where you came from; it is what you do best
Go back to being nothing,; an annoying little pest
And when you get there be sure look up high
Can you see me beaming brightly, lighting up the sky

Each night I am reminded that you are evil, selfish and vile
Each night I am reminded how lucky I am, blessed and smile
You should see them now you've gone; happy, confident and born again
All their own work, they erased you and survived any pain

It was much easier than I thought; you can't miss what was never there
But unlike you, I did feel true love, I wanted to grow, experience and share
What a waste, a pointless thought and an unwanted gift
All you saw was credibility, an excuse and blame to shift

It is getting closer, that beautiful light calling me
Close my eyes spread my wings and I am flying free
It's over, just give up and please let us be
Never again imprisoned, now and forever I'm holding the key

Your self-pity and fairy tales fall on deaf ears
Your stories and lies create no sympathy tears
One by one everyone is hearing the truth
T.R.U.T.H. comes with real evidence and proof

I swear this is the final night you will give me no sleep
There's no master plan or cunning revenge for me to reap
You are a lonely little man, idiot, bully, gambling fool
You've lost again; tough guy but I've got it all
Do you feel small?
Pathetic and cruel
Down, down you fall
At last I am standing tall
...We've got it all

The war is over

Every bruise you gave me
Has become
a battleshield
Every scar you gave me
Has regenerated
Stronger skin
You can't touch me now
Every bone broken by you
Has healed
Every tear shed for you
Has long since dried
You can't reach me now
I'm peaceful
I've stopped the war
You can't hurt me
Any more

A cry far from home

A wind is ruffling the tawny pelt
Of Africa, Kikuyu, quick as flies,
Batten upon the bloodstreams of the veldt.
Corpses are scattered through a paradise.
Only the worm, colonel of carrion, cries:
'Waste no compassion on these separate dead!'
Statistics justify and scholars seize
The salients of colonial policy.
What is that to the white child hacked in bed?
To savages, expendable as Jews?
Threshed out by beaters, the long rushes break
In a white dust of ibises whose cries
Have wheeled since civilizations dawn
From the parched river or beast-teeming plain.
The violence of beast on beast is read
As natural law, but upright man
Seeks his divinity by inflicting pain.
Delirious as these worried beasts, his wars
Dance to the tightened carcass of a drum,
While he calls courage still that native dread
Of the white peace contracted by the dead.

Again brutish necessity wipes its hands
Upon the napkin of a dirty cause, again
A waste of our compassion, as with Spain,
The gorilla wrestles with the superman.
I who am poisoned with the blood of both,
Where shall I turn, divided to the vein?
I who have cursed
The drunken officer of British rule, how choose
Between this Africa and the English tongue I love?
Betray them both, or give back what they give?
How can I face such slaughter and be cool?
How can I turn from Africa and live?

                                                                                        

                                                                          

The Virtue

We cannot live, except thus mutually
We alternate, aware or unaware,
The reflex act of life: and when we bear
Our virtue onward most impulsively,
Most full of invocation, and to be
Most instantly complainant, certes, there
We live most life, whoever breathes most air
And counts his dying years by sun and sea.
But when a soul, by choice and conscience, doth
Throw out her full force on another soul,
The conscience and the concentration both make
mere life, Love. For Life in perfect whole
And aim consummated, is Love in sooth,
As nature’s magnet-heat rounds pole with pole.

By Anonymous 

If I Should Die

If I should die,
And you should live,
And time should gurgle on,
And morn should beam,
And noon should burn,
As it has usual done;
If birds should build as early,
And bees as bustling go,–
One might depart at option
From enterprise below!
‘It is sweet to know that stocks will stand
When we with daisies lie,
That commerce will continue,
And trades as briskly fly.
It make the parting tranquil
And keeps the soul serene,
That gentlemen so sprightly
Conduct the pleasing scene!

By

Emily Dickson